then he left

i felt too much

he didn't feel at all

I've spent my life loving people
who don't love me back

"its nothing new"
i tell myself

my heart is at a crossroad
of letting go
and holding on

because i hate you
but i want you to show up at my door
and fight for me

but thats the problem here
is that i feel too much

and he feels nothing at all

so at 3 am when I'm hurting
and he's sleeping

ill tell myself
"its nothing new"

and let go

it was all a lie