Lauren W.

for months now i've been watching the seasons change

it's 10:31 on a Sunday night and i just feel sad

everything is going fine, i have to keep telling myself that
but i don't believe myself when i do

i've wanted to cry for a few days now
but i hate the way my eyes look the next day

i've got a lot on my mind lately

I'm thinking about a boy, and graduation, and i have this sad song stuck in my head

i'm looking threw pictures of me and a boy with blue eyes and i can't help but think what went wrong

in just a few months we're all going to be living on university avenue and i'm not sure i chose the right major
or college
or apartment building

I can hear my parents talking downstairs and i'm thinking about how much I'm going to miss the saturday morning donut runs with dad
and the late night talks with mom

my best friend since second grade submitted her mission papers today and I'm so happy for her, i am, but I'm also really sad and i can't stop thinking about it

my brother just told me he's disappointed in me, and it won't get out of my head
and my sister just announced she's having a baby boy in October and i couldn't be more excited

my best friends are going to make new best friends in just a few months and i wish i could tell the new ones how lucky they are

my mom brought home a puppy two days ago and i think its the only thing keeping me sane

i'm moving to salt lake this week and i haven't even started to pack
maybe it's because i don't want to leave the memories,
maybe it's because the walls know too many of my secrets and i don't want to start over someplace new

but mostly, i'm thinking about a boy, and graduation, and i've got this sad song stuck in my head